Friday, September 7, 2018

On the way to Hetauda

It was raining. The road was slippery. Automobiles were crawling like tortoise. Nineteenth Century buses were farting black smoke and honking arrhythmically. Motorcyclists were craning their heads like geese in the lake and overtaking every kind of vehicles. Beep...beep...beep...beep. I was among them. I could see grumpy faced people in the bus or, the car looking at me as if I was the one who caused the whole lot of problem to their journey. I was just one amongst other motorcyclists and let the system run. That was the best practice we fashioned while driving in the town or the countryside; well, we all, you and I.

It was 12:30 PM. The first Saturday of May, 2012. I was going to Hetauda from Kathmandu on motorbike, black Honda shine. There was a heavy traffic in Dakshinkali road because it was a Saturday and many people were returning to Kathmandu from Dakshinkali temple after morning worshipping. This temple is located 14 miles south of Kathamandu valley which is famous for godesses Kali Puja. Some of the travellers were in their personal cars, taxies and others were in the public buses. The motorcyclists were just like leeches in the high-hill damp grasses. In fact, it was a complete chaos.

Beeping and dragging through narrow gap between two lanes of the broken, mud-gravy bumpy road, I finally arrived at Dakshinkali. As I just crossed the holy river of Dakshinkali, I saw a girl waving her hand from a shelter just above the road. I slower the speed and pulled over. I quickly scanned her from head to toe, solder to solder if I could recognize her. She was definitely in her late teens, wearing green and white spotted Kurtha, had a shy demeanour but bold enough to ask ride in her subdued voice. Her solder length hair was  partly colored gold and dishevelled. A gray backpack was swelled like a pregnant belly on her back. 
"Can you please give me a ride to Deurali…I have been waiting for Sumo but they all came full… there is a bus coming at 4.00PM, but I have to go early, " she finished all in a single sentence.
Her eyes were round and wide with slender eyebrows. She had strawberry lips, bubbly outlook and shiny, halo- white teeth. Two moderate islands were visible in the ocean of  her youth. I wanted to quench the thirst drinking the water from the deep ocean standing in front of me, but no way. 
" Roads are slippery and its raining. I think It's good to wait for  another Sumo," I replied in a dilemma.
When she broke into a smile, her white teeth lit up and kindled my heart. I could sense a debate between brain and body.
 Fuck the brain, I moved my backpack to the front and ask her to mount onto the back seat. She put her hand onto my solder and placed her bum on the edge of the back seat shaking it back and forth. I asked her to move closer and hold me firmly so that I could balance the bike. Don't take me wrong, I have no other motive besides driving safely. She, soon, put her both hands on my solder. Hot garlicky air hit my nose instantly. An electric sensation ran through me as she rested her body on my back.
" Do you go to school", I asked.
"No", she sounded like giggling.
"Did you come to worship the goddess Kali here".
"No, I came to visit my sister. She lives here."
" Why didn't you wait Sumo in the bazaar? You could get Sumo from there."
" I just walked because while standing there, so may people were gazing at me. I felt uncomfortable."
 Since it was raining I choose to keep quite and concentrate on driving. A Hetauda sumo passed by me so close that I nearly hit the wall. I grunted some angry words and asked her if she was okay. She was talking on the phone which surprised me that how could she managed to hold the phone in her one hand while I was driving in a rough, bumpy narrow, slippery road.
When we arrived at the summit of Chhaimale with a great difficulty, she requested me to stop for pee. It was still raining. She was soaked and the outer layer of clothes became transparent to  the inner garments. As I stopped the bike on the side of the road, she dismounted and ran into the bush. I assumed that she went far enough to get screened from he bush. I walked to the other side of the road, hid behind a tree and peed. And I came back to the bike and looked around, but could not she her. I thought she  was taking a shit instead of pee in the bush. I waited more than twenty minutes, however she never returned. With a hesitation, I walked into the bush where she was heading, looked around but could not locate her. There was a narrow unpaved road stretched down a small village. 
I felt uncomfortable. She told me earlier that she was going to Deurali; it was not even a half way through. Why did she lie me? Why did she run away without letting me know that she was going to the village down the road and would not come back?
I carried my backpack and mounted on bike. As I started the engine, two sketchy guys stopped on my side.
" Did you see a girl on the way?" one of them asked putting his hat backwards.
" Girl"? Any description? I asked.
" A girl about twenty-two, peach skin color wearing kurtha surwal…medium height…", told another boy.
I assessed the  situation and immediately sensed something fishy.  
"No", I said boldly.
They looked each other and drove down the hill towards Pharping. After a five minutes drive along the narrow road, I felt the wheels stuck in the mud. I thought it was the rear tire that was flat which I repaired a month ago putting a patch on it. I sensed a safety hazard while moving ahead because I could lose the balance and meet an accident. Moreover, it could cause more damage to the rim .
A guy who was just ahead of me pulled over and let me go ahead looking at me strangely. It made my head rubble for a while. In the mean time, I felt my bike wiggly than before. I pulled over and parked on the edge of the road. This time, I saw the front tire completely flat.
I was standstill. I looked at the passerby and so did they. I was on the state of confusion what to do or, not to do. There were no workshops nearby. In front of me, the road was steep, water pooled in some places and rocks were falling from the fresh  landslides in the hill. There was a workshop at Sisneri, but it was about five kilometer far from my place. If I returned to the Pharping, it would take me hours pushing the bike all the way. It was the center of Chhaimale village and, I had no clue if there were any workshops in the area. 
I had no choice. At any cost, I had to fix the problem as soon as possible. Wherever I go, I had to push the bike up to the workshop because riding on it would not be safe and also could case more damage to the wheel. As I checked the wallet, I found only three hundred rupee left. In that area, new tube replacement would cost five hundred minimum. I phoned my wife and told her about the situation. However, I did not tell her how difficult it would be to get the tire fixed. After a moment, new alternatives started bubbling in the head…“Why not to borrow some money from the driver of "Hamro Sumo" since I know most of the drivers” …“‘No’ it will be embarrassing. They might have stuffs to get the puncture fixed, so why not to ask for help. Should I leave the bike at someone's house and come next time to get it? Can I get a ride or a seat on a Sumo at that time? And so on and so on.
 I remembered a line from a poem I read two days before, “stop thinking and end your problem…problem is the seed of solution.” 
I decided to go back Pharping ( Dakhchhinkali) where I could change tube and also withdraw some cash from ATM. Then, I started pushing the bike with the strength from baptism.
On the way to  Pharping, around 3 KM’s distant, I noticed a graffiti on the wall of a house. In fact, it was an ad "Bike Marmat Kendra" written on the wall of small mud-stone house like a den. I looked around for a while and saw a man coming out of the neighbouring store. He was a middle aged man with gundruki hair, puffy eyes and clumsy body wearing a dark tattered shirt and shorts with holes enough to display the dove's nest. 'Dhunga khojda deuta milejhai' in reality, he turned to be a mechanic who could fix the puncture patching stickers over the hole on the tube. He brought a tool bag and a wooden log from inside the house. On the side of the road, in a narrow grassy field, he started his work. After removing the tire from the wheel, he took out the tube like an intestine from the goat’s belly, inflated it with a hand pump and, took out his tongue and put it on the tube. In fact, he licked the tube more than five places.
“Here it is”, he grinned at me with the foolscap of his yellow teeth. He rubbed over the hole with a stone and put a patch over it. Again, he inflated the tube and looked it thoroughly with his goat eyes and licked with his tongue. “Here, too”, the skin of his forehead shrunk at once and formed a shape of a brush tree.
The more he inspected, the more he found the holes. I requested him to change the new tube. But he told me that it could cost more.
 “How much it costs?” I asked.
“Do you have five hundred?” he looked at me as if I was a homeless guy riding a stolen bike. I became polite more than necessary and told him that I had only three hundred and I would pay him the rest on next Friday if he trusted me. He shook his head for “NO”.
"Add more patches and make it run. I don't have enough money to pay for the new tube. I am new in this place. Nobody knows me to lend me money", I pleaded him.
 I listened my heart, "calm down, all will be okay”.
He scratched his head and asked me to bring a tube from a trash nearby his house. There were many tubes dumped in the rubbish and most of them were covered in the grass. I looked around and quickly picked up two and  passed onto him. There were already patches on it. He started mumbling. He picked one of them up and inflated. He examined it minutely. He said something but I couldn’t catch quietly. He walked to the water drum and dipped it into the water instead of licking. As he came back, I noticed an unusual glow on  his face. 
“ Do you have five hundred?”, he asked me again.
“I told you already I just have three hundred”, I replied politely.
 "This is a new tube which I put there yesterday”, he told clearing his throat. 
I understood the situation. I didn’t speak a word for a while. He inserted a tube in the tire and inflated it and put back on the bike.  He took a short test drive, too.
“When will you come back? "He asked.
'Next Friday', I replied.
He was also telling me while working on the tube that some Madhesis had betrayed him earlier. He told me that one of the guys owed eight hundred who never came back to pay it. I understood his intention. He was picking up a tube from the trash and selling me in a new price. I couldn’t say anything because I had no choices. Due to the grace of  God, the tube was good.
After he handed the key over me, I gave him three hundred and requested him to return fifty rupees; so that I could pay to the check post on the way. He asked my phone number, took a piece of stone and rubbed it over another flat stone scribbling the digits of my phone numbers. I offered the best lip-service with sugar-coated words and drove on my way. I checked the wheel twice in a very short distance to know if they were okay. Luckily! Yes, they were.

Then I headed towards Sisneri, a hamlet on the bank of Bagmati river, about thirty seven kilometer south of Kathmandu. As I reached there, I saw more than fifty people gathered in one of the hotel's front yard. I pulled over and craned my neck screening the mass. I was shocked seeing a girl in the police handcuffs. Three Police officers were on the scene and around fifty onlookers. It did not take me a long to recognize the girl who just an hour before was on my back seat.
I asked some of the onlookers if they knew the reason why she was being arrested. Everyone was beating around the bush, but nobody knew the truth.
" It was said that she had stolen a neckless from a jewelry shop", a man, who had his both hands entangled on back, said.
" She is a whore. She stabbed one of her clients", an old man wearing a tattered hat said.
" No, she was one of the agents of girl traffickers in rural Makwanpur,' another young lady interrupted.
I slipped out of the crowd since nobody had a clue why she was being handcuffed. Anything could be possible. How did she make her way down Sisneri ahead of me? Who gave her the ride? Why did she escaped from my ride? I kept bugging my head. She might have got the Sumo ride when I was spending an hour with the primitive mechanics on the way.

Dark cloud was hovering in the sky. I could hear the thunderstorm on the west part of Kulekhani.
I put the raincoat back on and continued driving. The image of the innocent looking girl occupied the mind like a shadow. The girl whom I first saw as a school girl, innocent and the most beautiful, now turned to be some ugly frightening image.
"Did she break in at someone's house? Did she commit a murder, or she is a drug dealer?"These questions kept bugging my head. I never found the answer. A huge rock rolled down the river right from my nose. I stopped and looked up the hill where mud was still sliding. I quickly accelerated and crossed the landslide through a narrow tract.
Driving through several obstacles on the way, crossing the pooled water at several places, I finally stopped at a hotel in Kulekhani. On the side of the road, there were several local vegetable and fruit sellers waiting for the customers. Sumo passengers were the first customers for them and the bikers. They were selling fresh cauliflowers, cabbages, cucumbers, yams, beans, green leafy vegetables, peas, potatoes and seasonal fruits like peach and  plums and, some of them were selling fresh fishes from Kulekhani dam. One of the passengers was telling others in a group that those fishes were actually from Janakpur and other parts of Terai. 
I went inside the hotel, a kind off in on the road side who sell foods and liquor the same table. Tables were almost full. I found one in a corner, put my backpack on the table and waved to a server. Nobody showed for five minutes. I walked to the counter and ordered a plate of chicken fry and a beer. I wanted to erage the hunting image of the girl and near miss accident with a juice of barley. A girl delivered the order on my table and lit het teeth. I saw the image of the same girl I encountered earlier in her presence. I quickly turned my head otherside and cracked the beer. I wanted to drink more but the road ahead was narrow, up and down with a paved but broken in several palces with short and sharp turnings. I paid the bill and continued driving up the hill towards Deurali. I felt the bike lighter than earlier and had better control on speed. While I was driving down to Bhimbhedi from Deurali through narrow and steep road, I braked hard at a sharp turning to avoid collision with a Nissan Pulser. As a result, the wheel somersaulted on the side. I found one of my legs trapped under the wheel which I could not pull myself out. In the meantime, a sumo stopped abruptly very close and the driver, followed by curious passenger, approached me, checked the surrounding and  removed the bike. He asked if anything hurts. Luckily, nothing had happened to me, not even a bruise. I thought I got a new life that there was nothing left to be worried about. Without looking at the faces of the onlookes, I thanked the driver and mounted on the bike, ran away from the crowd. At this moment, I neither had the image of the hunting girl nor the feeling of remorse or regret. I was overjoyed. 



Wednesday, September 5, 2018

First Day of School

"Baba, baba can I go to dada's school today with you? I want to see, said my little daughter who is going to be four years old in October.
"Why do you want to see dada's school? You have to go to Daycare with mom. Next year you will turn five, then it will be your time to go to school in Kindergarten", I bounced her on my solder and pinched her cheek.
"Koipani laadainan malai'. Nobody wants to take me", she twists her snout and made her face sad.
"Listen honey, today is dada's first day in a new school. I have to take him in and show the classroom. And also I have to introduce with his teacher. If you go with me,it will be late", I tried to persuade her.

"Baba dada will be shy in the school today".
"How did you know that?"
"Dada told mom yesterday when we were going to sleep."
"No, he will not. Its okay to be a little shy on the first day. But I believe he will be okay". 
I looked at Divyash who was listening our conversation. He looked little nervous. 
"Divyash! are you excited to go to new school, make new friends, having new teachers. Believe me it will a lot fun," I gave him a soft pat on his back.
Mom was cooking lunch for him. She was running in the kitchen  to bed room and, back and forth. I knew why she did that because she has to make Divyash ready with his favourite clothing, make shreya ready to daycare, prepare lunch, feed them and finally be ready for the job that starts at 9AM.
"Divyash, be ready for the school. I will take a quick shower and drive you off the school. From tomorrow you can take the bus," I gently rubbed his head and went to the washroom.
Divyash was wearing his new shoes which he bought on our last shopping. It has lights on the sole and he was stamping on the floor. 
" I don't have the boots like dada's. Nobody buys for me,"koi pani kindinnan", she still whining.

" My little sweet heart, this is only for baby. You are a big girl. You have your new pair of shoes. You must be happy."
" No, dada is not a baby. Dada le naya shoes paachha" he has got the new shoes" she repeated.
Thats okay sweetie. He is your lovely brother. 
She walked to the kitchen with her mom.
I changed the pant and put on a hoodie. It was cold outside. 
"Divyash, are you ready? Did you put your lunch box in the backpack? Where are your indoor shoes? Hurry up!" I kept reminding him while putting shoes on.
"Here are his indoor shoes. I have written name in it. He may need more stuffs to be taken to school. Don't forget to ask", my wife briefed me before we come out of the door. 
"Bye! Dada, bye baba!" Shreya was standing by the door.
"Don't forget to bring dada to daycare after school", she commanded.
"Hus, hus, bye now", I closed the door and we ran down the hallway.
We rode on the car and headed to the Macdugall  Public School located 107-109 Ave. There was a construction going on near the south entrance. I parked a far way and walked to the school. 
Divyash was looking around the big building and trying to remember the things from his memory although he was never been there before. However, he had been to the grounds of purple park. He was admitted to a Duck in Day Care for a few days when we first came in Canada in 2014.
As we entered the building, I went to the reception with Divyash to get information about the classroom. The lady at the reception who looked like Philipino told me that the students name and classroom are posted on the wall outside. Then we came out and checked the list. 
There was a teachers name and classroom on the top and the name of the students below it.
In the grade -2 list I found Divyash's name listed on classroom #103. Teacher's name was Cathy something which I totally forgot when we came outside.
"A young white nice looking lady approached me and said 'hi'!
I greeted her back and introduced Divyash who said hello to her and told his name in her request.
Then she took us to the west side of the building where other kids were standing on queue and introduced a teacher named Cathy. 
She was elderly female with smily face. She briefly introduced with myself and Divyash. This time Divyash was little nervous. 
I told her that it was a first day in a  new school so that he looked nervous. 
He will be okay.
In our conversation, I also informed that he was in St Cathrine School for Kindergarten and Grade-1.
Then I said "bye" to Divyash and came back home. 
In the mean time, Shreya was standing  at the door with her mom to go to daycare.
" Baba, was Divyash shy in the school?"she asked immediately. 
"No" he was not." I sounded little hard.
" don't forget to bring him to daycare, okay!" She commanded.
Then I hugged her and said "bye". Then she left for daycare with mom.
At 03:00PM I went to the school to pick up Divyash. I waited about 15 minutes outside of his classroom. About 03:20 PM he came out of the class with a big smile.
As we were exiting the building, he told, " baba, I made a friend today. We played together. In this school they have three recessions... you know baba there used to be only two recessions in St Catherine school," he was briefing me.
While coming back home, we picked up Shreya from the Daycare. Divyash was telling her how one of the students chewed the eraser and left on the floor. They were sharing stuffs and playing together in their room while I was preparing snacks for them.

September-4, 2018 

Tuesday, September 4, 2018

Lumbini and Buddha

"Baba baba, when are we going to Nepal", my 6 years son asked me yesterday when I was reading a book entitled "Buddha" by Deepak Chopra.
"Next month. Are you excited to visit your birth place?"
"Yes, I am. I will be visiting Hujur baba and Ama in Kathmandu and Hajur Aama in Baglung. I know where Baglung is?"
"Are you sure?" I looked into his eyes and noticed a radiant of excitement.
"Yes Baba, I am sure, I told you!" 
"Then you should be a nice boy. Go, get a book and start reading."
He went out of my room, kicked a small plastic ball onto the wall and said something sounded like "Ronaldo".
He is overtly energetic in kicking ball in the room since last World Cup season. 
After a few minutes, he came to the room with a book " Dangers in the Darkest Hour" by Mary Osborn.
"Baba how did France survive in the 2nd World War?" 
"  Is the book about the World War?" I put my book away and grabbed his book.
" Yes Baba, this is about the world war  second, Germany, France and Nazis."
I was surprised how my little kid could talk about history, war, Nazi. I know that he is the fan of Osborn's Tree House Series. I also know that in a last couple of months he has read a number of chapter books.
I scanned the book quickly. The book has been divided in to short chapter with war stories circled around a few characters.
" Can you read from page 35 -65 for me aloud? I have read up to 35, you see that I folded the page little bit on the right", he asked and slipped into the blanket. 
I started reading the book, read one chapter and closed it. He was not happy with that because he wanted me to read up to page 65.
"Okay, you can read the book later. This is your book, so you have to read it. I am reading my book. Lets talk about your country", I switched the topic.
" Tell me how many members are there in your family, in Baglung?" I asked.
"Hajur Aama, Thulo Baba, Khimu Uncle, Gopal Uncle..ho", he looked at me with confusion.
" You are right. But there are more. Let me tell you".
He stretched his legs and put his hands round my belly. 
" You start counting okay. Hajur Aam, Thulo Baba,thuli aama, maailo baba, maaili aama, saailo baba, saaili aama, Neelam uncle, untie, khem uncle, untie, Gopal uncle untie. Did you count how many?" I paused and confirmed with him.
"Yes, I did. But that is a lot", he said.
Wait, there are still more.
He giggles. " still more!"
"Kalpana sister, my sister", she is the only sister of seven brothers."
"Seven brothers!" He sighed. 
"Yes, and your brothers, Kamal, Anup, Ayush, and other three more brothers. I even forgot their names. And you have five sisters Janaki, Jyoti, Alisha, Bhawana and bhanji."
"Bhanji!" 
"Yes, my bhanji but your sister.
"Did you stop counting?"
I was counting, but I forgot now. There were many.
" Hold on a second baby, there are even more".
"I am not a baby", he objected instantly.
"Okay Big boy, listen I haven't told you about your Mom's family side in Kathamandu."
" I know them", he replied quickly.
" Then tell me the names".
" Hajur baba, Aama, Sita mamu, Seema mom, Sanvi, Sano baba, he told confidently.
"What about Australia?.
" I know, Tonu mama, maaiju and Bidhu bhai. See I know all."
"Good boy. Now you know all your family members, right. Don't forget us. We are also family members, mom, shreya, you and I."
" No, Shreya is not. She was born in Canada." 
" She was born here but she is your sister, isn't she? I poked in his belly."
He giggles a while and said," yes she is".
" Are you buying gifts for each of them?"
" No, you are. You have money, I don't." He picked up my book and started reading the title, "Buddha", Buda hi hi, he giggled again.
" you wanna know who Buddha was, where was he born and what he become. You have to read this book".
"This whole book! He turned the pages. This is a lot. But I can read this book" he said with guts.
" Okay, you can. Listen, we will to Lumbini, when we go to Nepal. Lumbini is the place where Buddha was born. He was a prince of the rich King, named Suddhodan. He had every thing to enjoy in the palace. One day he came out of the palace, saw sick people, old people and dead people. It really hurt him. He was deeply concerned why the people get sick, get older and die. One day, he left the palace, went to the forest and went on penance."
"Baba what is penance", he interrupted me.
"penance is a meditation; sitting in one position in one place for long period of time. He did not eat and drink for days. And finally he was enlightened. He found the truth. He had many followers. He preached them and his followers wrote the book about his knowledge. What is now called Buddhism", I tried to make the story easy so that he can understand. 
" Baba, Buddhist are in China. I read in the book " Great wall of China".
"Okay, there are many people who worship Buddha as a God in Nepal, China, Japan, Burma, Bhutan and some other countries. I will show you the temples in Lumbini which were built by those countries. Many people visit Lumbini every year. They are called religious tourists."
My 3 years old daughter came in the room with her dolly baby beeping"noodle,noodle". She mounted onto the bed and slipped to the brother's side.
" Baba where is my story", she asked in her authoritative voice.
" next, I will write about you, sweetie"
Now, I have some work to do. You guys go to play. Promise you guys don't fight,okay.